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This weekend I need to sleep. Yup.
That’s pretty much what I have planned, thankfully. My body is letting me know that I’ve pushed it too much, I am exhausted and just in need of a few days of solid sleep and rest.
I feel like I say that A LOT – but it’s part of my reality. I do try to not dwell on it, but honestly I’ve been thinking about it a fair amount lately in part due to a few conversations I’ve had around my symptoms. (Note: I am not looking for any advice on what to do to fix this, I am working with doctors on that and have been dealing with this issue for over a decade).
Primarily, questions from friends about how I can sleep all day. Honestly, it’s hard for me to remember that LITERALLY sleeping all day is not a part of most people’s lives. I’m not talking “lay around in bed and read and watch movies,” I mean straight up sleeping. Last weekend I was awake from only about 3 hours on Sunday. Yes, I mean 3 hours total of awake-time between approximately 8pm Saturday night and 6am Monday morning. Without any sort of sleep aid.
So when people ask “How can you sleep all day?” I have to pause, because my question is “How could I not?” I don’t set out wanting to sleep like that, I would much rather be putting my day to use doing something I enjoy, something productive, or something fun. But if I keep pushing that sleeping time off what happens is my eyes start refusing to stay open. No amount of caffeination or sugar will help to keep me going and I will fall asleep. I can technically keep going, a shell of myself working through the motions of what a “awake human-type person” does, but my brain is much, my emotions are raw, and I am fighting every step to keep from falling asleep.
I get small bursts of this sometimes during particularly challenging weeks — where I will nod off on the bus on my way into work (even if I am standing), and on my way home. Those days where it takes every ounce of my energy to make it through a work-day and I can think of nothing I want… need… more than to curl up in bed and get some rest.
Some of this, I know, is because my body is constantly attacking itself. I have been diagnosed with undifferentiated connective tissue disease – which is an autoimmune disease. At a very basic level it means that my body is constantly attacking itself, trying to fix something that isn’t wrong. So, you know how when you are getting sick you need sleep to heal? My body thinks I’m healing ALL THE TIME. I have increased inflammation and pain because it’s targeting things to heal, and it’s just exhausting. So, yes, sometimes I just need to sleep.
And this weekend, this weekend I’ll be doing just that.
What do you have planned?